The arrival :)

Having a baby. When we watch tv and movies having a baby seems soo out of this world, screaming, sweating and all that yelling, but fortunately for me it went entirely the other way around. I was absolutely terrified of having a baby since the first day I found out I was pregnant, everyone would always tell me how painful and messy process it was. When my tummy hurts I easily get soo praning. I just always pray that I would have a safe and quick delivery. Sometimes I would whisper to Kiera in my tummy “baby don’t give mommy a hard time ha.”

It was time for Kiera to arrive. The day before, we attended a friend’s birthday party and went home early. I was already having a hard time walking around just because of the weight of my tummy.  That night till 4 AM, we were just watching a reality show where a lady gave birth. My goodness, it scared me even more haha.  Since I got pregnant I had trouble-sleeping na, its normal naman daw. My doctor said its either pregnant women sleep too much or can’t sleep enough. Unfortunately for me I couldn’t sleep. Anyways, I slept around 5am, and then woke up around 9am. I went to the bathroom and halfway there I got a sudden pain sa tummy ko, I had to stop and hold on to the side of the cabinet for a few seconds then continued to the bathroom. I went back to the bed again and tried to sleep, but I couldn’t sleep anymore kasi Sumasakit nanaman tiyan ko. So I decided to get up and moved to another room kasi naiinitan ako. (I don’t use aircon kasi, nilalamig ako. :p) When I was in the other room sumasakit padin, so I decided to distract myself by going to the kitchen and makes sandwich. I was in denial then that I was starting contraction or whatever it was, nanuod pako Pedro Penduko kasi there were replays in the morning. Mas dumalas un pain, nun un every 10 mins tas sobra sakit then mawawala then it would come back, then every 5 mins, then 3 mins, soo I texted my doctor and woke up Charles. It was time to go to the hospital.

The day had come. Bags are packed, trying to keep calm, hospital bound, and it was a little traffic ahhaha. Keeping my breathing properly soo I wouldn’t panic. When we got nearer and nearer to the hospital the pain was getting worse, when the contractions start, the longest was 1 min! I had to wait for the pain to go away before I would start walking. We finally made it and started monitoring my contraction. Then it started hurting real bad, to my surprise I was 7cm na pala, nagulat doctors ko na ganun lng un reactions ko towards pain, mataas pala pain tolerance ko, I was lucky kasi all of my doctors was there na sa hospital at that time. Direcho nako sa birthing room and Dra. Joyce Lim, my anaes friend injected me epidural. After the epidural was injected, everything felt better, then nakikipag chikahan nako sa friends ko, una to arrive was Thirdee, followed by Charles family and my dad. Naka pag kilay pako and cheek tint, of course for pictures. 

Then the doctor said okay I think you’re ready to push. Un na pala un! Kala ko sasakit pa and ilang hours pa ako mag hihintay. I was surprised kasi nga I felt nothing it felt normal, tapos I don’t know how do I push because I couldn’t feel half of my body dahil sa epidural. So I just held my breathe and pushed best I can. After 2 hrs of pushing, little Kiera arrived! My OB, Dra. Joann Matias handed her over to me. I didn’t know if I would carry her or what. I didn’t know how to hold a baby! I was overwhelmed and shocked; this was the moment I’ve been waiting for.

I had a hard time on her first few days because she cried non stop. Un pala wala ako milk, nag stimulate lang un milk ko nun 4^th day. She was soo hungry na pala, during that time my mom was here na to assist me and teach me proper ways of taking care of a baby and the little secrets she knew. Im soo glad she was here, I didn’t know what to do without her. The first week was toxic. I was crying all the time. I found it soo overwhelming and stressful, when I would carry her she would cry then once kunin ng mom ko, she would stop, maybe kasama nadin kasi un pagod at puyat plus mommy hormones or what they call post partum. It was an entirely new world for me. My life changed in a blink of an eye, it took time to adjust but now everything is going smoothly and im as happy as ever. Waking up each day to a little ray of sunshine my little mam Kiera smiling at me, shes such a good baby and Gods greatest gift to me, like I said in an interview before, “maybe a baby is exactly what I need.” She brought me into a new perspective in life, I look at things differently now, im a different person now, a better person in each and everyway. I now understand everything my mom told me before and why she would always get mad at me and have these huge sermons, that’s because she loved me.

I cant imagine where the road will lead me now, but im praying I can give Kiera a life that gives her joy, and provide all her needs. As a parent I want her to always have the best, in education on in anything she does. Being a mom is the hardest job, and being a parent is a huge responsibility, but with all that ive been through, it has prepared me for this moment, at alam ko ready nako.

 A new journey has begun, and I thank God for leading me to an unexpected path, but to a path that I needed to go. I wouldn’t be where I am right now without family and friends and especially my baby Kiera, sabi nga nila things get really bad before they get better, but for me, it just keeps getting better.:)

   Love,

      Mel

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