Time to say goodbye

I’ve live in this condo for the past 13 years of my life, and yesterday would be the last day I would be able to see this view. I always took it for granted, but the last time i stood in that empty room and looked out the window, I realized how beautiful it was and how lucky I was to be able to live there for half my life. We moved out the last few items we left behind. Its soo hard for me to go, all I ever knew was at that condo, I basically grew up there and it was what I call home. Closing that door one last time, sumikip talaga un throat ko, holding back tears, i couldn't believe that it was my last time there, and that it is time for me to go.

Moving out must have been the hardest thing I ever had to do, not only let go of a lot of things that I couldn’t bring with me but also the thought that I was now on my own to face the world as an adult. Being very sheltered and the bunso of the family, and now out to face a world where I have to fix my own problems and provide for a little new life we brought into this world.

My new place is far from what im used to. From a 4 bedroom 184sqm condo to a 54sqm loft. I thought I was gonna go crazy. I let go of a lot of my shoes which I had like 200 pairs! Then clothes, my bag cabinets, my bed and a lot more. What really broke my heart was my dogs, my 3 dogs to be left behind. The new condo is too small, I kept telling myself that I would find a good home for them and dadalawin ko sila paminsan minsan, then when we were ready to get a bigger place i would get them back. Nakamind set nako eh, pero di ko talaga kaya, they are my babies. I had to bring them with me. Soo now siksikan kami sa condo, but I'm happy they're still with me. My little stress busters!

One thing I realized in life was that nothing is too difficult, nothing is permanent, everything happens for a reason, and this new chapter in my life is the time I need to grow up and to be more responsible, Im learning a lot now that I am on my own, I pay my own bills, take care of papers,  handle my own schedules, and sometimes even clean the house. My life now is simple, and I actually like it that way, its become more of how its supposed to be, its more real. I know I have a great friends, a loving boyfriend and my little treasure Kiera to make up for all the things that I have let go and lack. Material things will make you happy for a while, but what truly matters are the people that with love and support you no matter what, a small but happy home it has become.:)

Love,
   Mel

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