Total 360

When people say nag bago buhay nila, I thought na umaarte lang sila or exage lang sila. Un pala, un sinasabi nila na “mahirap” maging mom was an understatement! My world changed drastically. From earning my own money, to going to the mall buying whatever I want, travelling to wherever I felt like going, sleeping late, waking up whatever time i wanted to, to staying home and taking care of my baby. Don’t get me wrong it’s a wonderful feeling taking care of Kiera, its the greatest gift I could ever receive, but getting used to it is a different story.

Bunso ako sa family, I wouldn’t say I was spoiled, but I was very protected, I would get the things that I wanted only if I worked hard for them. I was on allowance till I was 19. When I was able to handle my own money on my own I was 20. Sanay ako na things are done for me, mag laba, pili ng susuotin ko, lutuin food ko, cleaning my room, fixing my bed, paliguan aso ko, may taga bayad ng bills, everything halos was done for me, walang kahirap hirap, I never had to worry about anything. Then BOOM! Reality check! I was an adult, responsible for another precious little life.

The stress I went through was intense. They call it I guess post partum, but I think I was just in an emotional phase with too much going on. I was moving out from a place i lived at for the past 13 years, and my showbiz career was put on hold, plus i was gaining weight. At times id give up on myself, sabihin ko sa sarili ko “di ko na kaya!” tas iiyak ako, not because ayaw ko na, but because I felt helpless. everything was soo new to me. Pag umiiyak si Kiera, sumasabay nako, I felt soo bad. I felt like I couldn’t help her and was soo overwhelmed, parang hindi totoo mga ngyayari. Di man lng ako marunong mag buhat ng bata, lalo na a new born baby, or nevertheless take care of one. Im soo thankful my mom flew in from the U.S. to teach me the 123’s of taking care of a baby.

Now things are getting soo much better,  im getting used to taking care of Kiera on my own, changing diapers, paliliguan, everything became much easier, well we’re on our third month na, It took a while but I had a lot of help from other moms and talking to them made all the difference. Always made sure I didn’t feel alone and had support from friends and family. Sabi nga nila before things get better you go through the bad, Then after that smooth sailing na.

I guess we’re at an age I guess na sabay sabay na kami na nag kakababy, un iba naman kinakasal, gun iba engaged. I make sure that as much as I can I can support my friends through the experience of being a mom as well, because it wasn’t easy! Ill tackle giving birth and first few days in another post. Id like to help you as much as I can as well. Don’t hesitate to leave your questions in the comment box, id be more than thrilled to help u as much as I can and please do let me know mommy secrets I might not know yet! Lets do this! Besides, The real super heroes are moms!!!

            Love,

                Mel

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